Driving around seeing all the beautiful blossoms its hard not to have a smile on your face. Macro photography is one of my favorite things and with blossoms comes tons of bees! We have a beautiful apple tree in full blossom out side our apartment. It was like a little piece of heaven trying to photograph them as the buzzed from one flower to the next. If you would like to see more images that I took head over to my photography website Kylie'sPhotography.com :)
(Karl and I were so upset we didn't have our skate boards with us once we saw this beautiful road and mountains in the background, looks like we will just have to go back soon)
Watching Karl change Kyson diaper on the hood of our jeep just melted my heart with happiness.
Karl and I have gone on many road trips since the time we met. We had quite a few people tell us to do as many as we could before having kids because once you have kids it becomes too hard. Yes we had to do a bit more prep work and planning but it was totally worth it. I felt like the trip was fun and free of stress. With that said if any of you have tips for traveling with kids please let me know :) because I never want to stop going on family adventures.
Although this road trip was only to Antelope Island which is less than 2 hours away it felt good to start going on adventures again. I didn't even know that this awesome place existed or that there are buffalo that close to Salt Lake City! It makes me wonder how many people living there know or maybe it's just me that was out of the loop.
If you have any advice of traveling with kids or some cool places we should go please let me know :) And thank you for all the support after my last blog post, I feel so blessed to have so many awesome people in my life.
I have been debating if I should write about this for a while now, because this was the hardest experience I have ever been through. I had heard that motherly love was strong but I didn't know how strong it truly was until it was the only thing keeping me going. I want to quickly add that I know many families/mothers who have gone through something much harder than I have. I now understand just a little more your pain but can't imagine the entirety of what you have experienced.
We weren't even home for 5 hours before we were on our way to the emergency room with little Kyson. He had a fever of 101 F which can be a very scary thing for a newborn baby. They started running tests and I thought I was terrible with needles until I experienced watching my child get pricked by a needle. I had to have Karl stay and hold Kyson during it while I walked the halls crying.
Luckily one of the first tests came back positive for Influenza A. If they weren't able to find anything they wanted to do a lumbar puncture so I was so relieved that we didn't need that to happen.
Kyson was then admitted to the NICU. I was very emotional, seeing as this was my little baby and that I had just given birth the day before my hormones were a bit all over the place. Karl stayed with Kyson and I went home to pack up something so we could stay there in the hospital with him. But after running around our apartment packing I came down with the flu as well. The next 14 hours were the hardest 14 hours of my life. I was too sick to even walk myself to the bathroom so I was stuck at home away from my new baby and my husband. I remember thinking if I could go through labor 10 times to make Kyson healthy and back in my arms I would in a heart beat.
That day was spent having my sweet mother help me to the bathroom and my dear sister came over to help me pump so I could at least feel like I was helping Kyson. It was so draining physically and emotionally but by that evening I had the strength to walk to the car. My parents drove me to the hospital where Karl was waiting at the front door with a wheel chair and face mask for me.
Finally being able to hold Kyson was amazing. I was crying lots and lots. Sadly I couldn't hold him long because just that car ride was so much for me. Karl took me up the hospital room that would be home for the next couple days. In my journal I wrote "That night was long, full of bloody adult diapers, pumping with engorged breasts, force feeding myself so I could take my pain killers and sleeping" It was rough but knowing Kyson was just on the floor below kept me going.
My mom snapped this picture (picture below) on our last day, at the moment I was thinking no one can ever see this picture! But it shows how crazy our life was.
Karl usually stayed down with kyson but would come up about every 3 hours to help me pump and get out of bed so I could use the restroom. Luckily near the end I could do this more on my own. Karl was there to feed Kyson and change every one of his diapers exept one that I got to do near the end. I felt so embarrassed because it was the first diaper I changed and Kyson was already about 5 days old.
I struggled fighting off the flu for a little over a week and half. My fever got up to 104 F at one point, it was hard keeping up with feeding Kyson. I joked that we might need to let my milk cool down before feeding him :) But it was nice being home with Kyson and Karl.
I'm sorry this is going up so late but I really debated sharing. For those of you who have gone through/going through something similar or harder my prayers go out to you.
I wake up in pain and my mind started going crazy with questions.... Was this a contraction? Just cramping?...... Did I eat something bad?..... Is this labor?!?.... No it can't be... I'm sure they will go away in a few hours like last time.
After using the restroom and trying to fall back asleep it's obvious these are regular contractions. But would these ones stay, or just die down after a few hours? I don't want to wake Karl unless I'm sure this is labor. I make my way to the living room and begin to time each contraction. How long each one was and how close together they were. It takes an hour of timing to finally convince myself this was the real deal.
I wait until the end of a contraction to walk back into the bedroom. Sitting on the bed and saying his name to wake Karl. I don't know how one tells their spouse they are in labor so I decided to say what we have been saying to each other throughout my whole pregnancy "Wanna have a baby?" His face lit up. I explained how I had been timing them and they were 5 to 8 minutes apart and that if he needed to sleep longer I would wake him up when I needed him. He chuckles at this remark and expresses how he couldn't sleep even if he wanted to.
Gathering a few last things to bring with us and going over my check list to make sure we have everything. I realize with this small amount of moving around my contractions are becoming more intense and closer together. I accepted the idea that we will be going to the hospital a few hours before I thought we would be.
Going into the bedroom to get dressed it takes me trying on 3 differents sweats pants to find some that actually fit. My legs, feet, hands, lets face it my whole body is so swollen it's hard finding something to wear.
We arrive at hospital and get into a room. I'm scared they are going to send me back home because I feel like my contractions should be more painful but they are 3-5 minutes apart and getting stronger with time and movement.
My doctor is delivering so they can't admit me until he checks me. Which leaves me to be monitored for a little while and then walk the halls to help ensure that I would bestaying here and having a baby today.
Admitted, walking around room and staying positive. With each contraction thinking of it as intensity not pain and picturing our little boy working his way down so he can arrive.
Enjoying a dose of Fentanyl to help take the edge off and switching up my position by sitting in bed and walking around.
Taking advantage of their huge bathtub and allow the warm water to help keep me calm and relaxed.
12:00 PM (Noon)
Things are starting to move faster and getting more intense. Trying to stay calm but feeling my anxiety creep up with the unknown of how much longer this will be and how I will handle it.
Decide to ask for an epidural. I feel it's getting close and don't want to go into an anxiety attack and end up with a c-section.
The anesthesiologist is doing his best but keeps missing. I'm sitting on the edge of the bed, Karl in front of me, holding and supporting me. Between contractions the anesthesiologist attempts to put my epidural in. After a couple contractions my water breaks, my body begins to push and I feel I have no control over it. The contraction ends and he tries again for the epidural. Another contraction begins my nurse and Karl help me keep my breathing under control. The contraction ends and finally my epidural is in but before it can really kick in, my body is going into pushing mode and I have no control. Karl pretty much lifts and lays me onto the bed, the nurses put my legs up and the end of the bed down. The Doctor comes in and another contraction begins, I push. The contraction ends and Karl gets really close to help me with my breathing. Another contraction begins I'm feeling determined. I try pushing as long and as hard as I can. The contraction ends and the doctor asks if I want to feel the top of his head. I reach down and quickly respond "That is so weird! I don't know if I like that" The nurses laugh and I find myself half smiling half laughing about it too. Another contraction begins and I push as hard and as long as I can. When I finally hear it "He's here!" this is also when I feel it, a massive relief like when you take a huge dump. Yes TMI but I had heard that's what it feels like and I would like to confirm it haha.
Kyson is born. The doctor holds him up and I see my little angel for the first time. Nothing compares to the love, joy, and peace you feel. It was like time stopped and that precious moment was forever, just staring at him. I finally shed my first tears of the day not in pain but in complete happiness. They lay him on my chest and he stops crying and becomes so peaceful.
My little angel was here, healthy and perfect. This will forever be one of the most incredible life changing moments, that I will cherish forever.
Kyson weighed 7pounds 13 ounces and was 20.5 inches tall.
I wanted to thank my amazing husband and mom who were there with me. I wouldn't have been able to do it with out them by side. Karl and I feel so blessed to have been able to experience this together and now go into this next chapter of our lives as a family of 3.
I hope you all enjoyed seeing a few of my favorite lipsticks for this time of year. If you have any favorites please let me know :)
Hello everyone! I hope you are all having an amazing day :) Because I am now at 39 weeks I think this will be my last pregnancy update post, Hopefully I'll be posting photos of our little boy soon :)
Sleep: I have been having such a hard time sleeping because I'll wake up with pains in my hips because he is so low. I'm also getting up to pee every hour (for reals every hour).
Contractions: There was one night a few days again when I thought I was having them but they sadly went away around midnight. I have heard thats good though because it means my body is slowly starting labor so it will have less work to do when I'm in real labor.
Food Cravings: Ice-cream! I have never liked ice-cream until a few weeks ago. At this exact moment I'm eating peanut butter ice-cream but salted caramel has been my fav :) I have also been loving bagels with either cream-cheese or Nutella.
Stretch marks: I have decided to just act like I'm collecting them because they are slowly moving around the tops of my thighs and I think I'll get them around my belly button really soon. I just remind myself that life goes on and theres always laser treatments :)
Movement: He isn't quite as active as he used to be or maybe I'm just getting use to it now. It is funny when he stretches out his legs because my whole belly becomes this horizontal oval, almost like I have a large football under my shirt vs the usually basketball.
Hospital bag packed: Yes :) Thank you so much to everyone who commented or messaged me, there was so much helpful advise. I feel way more ready now. (If you have anything you wished you had packed or was grateful you did pack please let me know!)
Thank you so much for all the love and support. This last week has been quite difficult for me. I get very anxious not knowing exactly when he is going to arrive. It doesn't help that I have nothing to do but wait around, I think I have reorganized different parts of our apartment at least a million times :) What did some of you moms out there do while you waited for your little ones to arrive? Walk around and eat spicy food to get them to come early?? I'll admit I have been doing that, it usually just leads to me having heart burn :)
With the baby coming so soon Karl and I have tried to spend some extra quality time together. A few nights ago we went out to dinner and then to the theater to see the new Star Wars. (Which was awesome) Although it was a wonderful date being so pregnant can make it more difficult to enjoy, I had to go pee so ofter and sitting in those theater seats can get quite uncomfortable.
So for our Saturday night date we decided to stay in the comfort of our own home. We made pizza and watched a movie. This was great because the bathroom is very close and we could pause the movie so I didn't have to miss any of the action :)
I hope you are all doing great and if you give either of these easy pizza recipes a try I would love to know your thoughts :)
I can't believe we are at the start of 2016 :) I have been looking forward to reaching January for so long now it's a little surreal having here. Karl and I faced the cold to take a few pregnancy photos together because who knows how much longer I'll be rockin the baby bump (hopefully not too much longer). I hope you enjoy the photos and a quick pregnancy update.
Maternity clothes: YES! I can't fit into anything. I actually can't even wear my maternity jeans because he is so low. So I'm just rocking the leggings or Karl's basket ball shorts, Thanks babe :)
Sleep: It takes me a little while to get comfortable but once I am I sleep great, I still have to get up and pee about 5 times a night but it doesn't bother me at all. I usually just think about that soon I'll be up holding and feeding our little boy during the night, which makes me really happy.
Food cravings: Just food in general :) I feel like I'm finally really eating for 2. I do find myself eating more foods that are high in sugar just to keep awake all day. Dates have been great for a healthier sugar source.
Stretch Marks: So far none on belly, but I think I'll get some soon around my belly button soon. I have lots on my bum and upper thighs though. At first I was really sad about it but I've now come to terms with it.
Contractions: I have been waking up with cramps every morning for a week now. I never thought I would enjoy the pain of cramps :) but it means I'm slowly dilating.
Movement: He is quite active usually for a bit during the day and then from 8-10 PM he parties :) Karl and I love watching my belly as he moves around. Funny story though I think he's camera shy because whenever I try and video my belly he stops moving haha.
Discomfort: I have had quite a bit of back pain which is no fun but lucky me I have an amazing husband who gives me massages.
Hospital bag packed: Not yet, I finished purchasing everything I need for myself and the baby. So now it's just about organizing it into the bag. (If you have any advise about what I should bring please comment or message me)
Nursery: It is looking so cute! I can't wait to share photos. We did so good at saving money and doing a few DIYs, I'm excited to share with you :)
Thank you for all the love and support. I'm getting so excited to have this little boy with us, and to end this pregnancy chapter in my life (until we decided to have another that is). If any of you have advise on what to have in a hospital bag please comment or message me :) thank you!
Hello! Wow I can't believe we are already into the month of December. This is defiantly the most wonderful time of the year (although Halloween in a very close second). For me this Christmas already has such a different feel about it, first I'm pregnant so this will be the last Christmas Karl and I have together without any children to take care of. Second 2 of my wonderful sister are away for the season. But no matter how many changes are happening, there is such a strong feeling of excitement and growth.
Karl and I helped my parents put up their tree this year. There is so much joy that comes from being around family. I feel so blessed to have my parents so close and karl's parents just a short drive away.
I hope you are all doing great and maybe thinking of how you can make this year a little extra special. Merry Christmas :)
Hey everyone!!! I'm at the start of the third and final trimester!! I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is flying by. To begin this pregnancy update I want to say I have the most amazing, supportive husband ever. I don't know what I would do without him :)
Clothing: I can't fit into most of my regular clothes, so I'm rocking my pregnancy jeans or leggings most days and whatever top fits. But I'm happy my belly is large enough it's obvious I'm pregnant.
Food: I haven't been very picky or had strong cravings. Lately some of my favorite foods are eggs, grilled cheese with salted tomatoes and homemade pizza.
Sleep: Most nights I sleep like rock but once in a while I'm up all night with weird dreams or can't get comfortable. By this point it's important to not sleep on your back and I sometimes end up on my back so karl has to push me back onto my side during the night. It's pretty funny to me.
Nesting: Because I suffer with anxiety I like to everything in place and ready a head of time. On that same note I don't want everything ready too early and get anxious because I'm just sitting around waiting. So I made a decision that I can't finish the nursery until after the baby shower, Which is in a week!! (If you want to be a part of the celebration you can check my Facebook page for info.)
Stretch marks: Sadly I have some on my bum but none of my belly (yet) I have been trying to stay on top of moisturizing and taking all my vitamins. I'm a point that I only have joy for our little one to come and if that means a few stretch marks then bring it on.
Baby movement: He is very very active. In the last week he has been gaining some strength in his movements. Makes me wonder if he will just kick his way out my belly :) It's been fun to have karl be able to feel the movements and sometimes see them. It's a crazy thing having your whole belly move and you have nothing to do with it.